Every time me and Azwaj recall this particular incident we always end up laughing so hard and Azwaj always ended up saying how lucky he was I was sooo in love in him that I had forgiven him even before he knew he screwed up big time…
Anyway continuing the countdown to our 8th anniversary this 25th March, this incident topped our “he say she say” scenario…
This incident happened during our first few date session. We were chatting over dinner on his couch and I was telling him how he “fills” this void I had in my life, when all of a sudden he said, “I don’t want to “feel” your void”. I was so stunned then, I actually, till now, can’t remember how that conversation ended. The rest of his words were just “blah, blah, blah” to me and all I can think of was, “what is wrong with this fellow?”.
However, at that time I was sooo in love that I overlooked the incident and somehow what happened after that day was not in sync with what he had said that night.
But you know what.. although I forgive I never really forget. Then one day after we were married, I asked him about that night. Azwaj’s memory, as usual, will always be fuzzy over details things like that but surprisingly he remembered that night.
I asked him what he meant when he said he did not want to “fill” my void. He explained that, he did not want to “feel” my void because he had enough void in his heart to “feel” himself. He said he was already drowning in “void” so he did not need another void to “feel”. I was like “what??” until I realized that what he meant was actually “feel” not “fill”… and Azwaj’s explanation to that screw-up was that as a musician they “feel” a lot of stuff like music, rhythm but not so much “filling” stuff…
hehehe..not Azwaj eh....
So, you have it…and that’s why they say “when you speak speak CLEARLY”… “cakap biar terang eh”….lolzz
Cheerio…
A lot of people would say.. “Oh wow! Aren’t you tired? Travelling every weekend?”. My answer would be “How can I feel too tired to visit the one I love?” After a while I got used to it. I would board the coach and sleep right through the five hours and upon reaching KL would be all refreshed for an all night activity with Azwaj.
